Macabreday has a way of making me feel guilty about not posting on this blog! he he.. well, guess i have been a bit lazy lately. Today is one of those rare days... Im usually one who wakes up at a time when so i can have exactly the time needed to get dressed and get to college. today, i woke up earlier. so i figured i would respond to his tag before i did anything else.... Im supposed to list 10 of my favourite things..... well, here goes....
1. food - need i say any more? i love food to a point where my better half seriously questions my commitment towards him if he is pitted against a gooey chocolate fudge!!! hehe..
2. cell phone - i know i sound like those bimbos who are stuck to their phones, but i really do need my phone... there was a time when i used to send more than 200 messages a day. but now, im not that jobless.. he he... but i still need my phone. every time i hear it beep, at least it gives me hope that someone i love is calling!!
3. mail - like mac said, i too love getting mails with my name on it.... i hate opening an empty mailbox.
4. surprises - i love surprises. period. i love to be surprised, i love to surprise people, i love to know that we can break the monotony. i hate things that are boring, the same and have no variations...
5. friends - i love my friends. i am horrible at showing how much they mean to me. i often take them for granted. but i love them and ill go mad if i dont have friends in abundance...
6. family - who can live without family. another set of people i take for granted!!!!! immediate and extended family are the ones who made me what i am today!!! they have seen me at my worst... how can i live without them.... (even my sisters!!!!! if they do ask me about this, ill completely deny ever saying that they are important to me, tho!)
7. books and music - cant imagine my life without either of them. i dont know how to explain this one!
8. juice - i know i already sai food, but juice is a whole new category!!!!!! he he... i love juice... almost any juice (not weird ones like tomato juice or cucumber juice, but normal ones like orange, apple, pineapple and the like )
9. time tables - i love time tables... i love planning my day, i love making schedules... none of my plans ever work!!!!!!! i always end up doing other stuff or the same stuff differently, but i love planning all the same!!!!!!!!
10. sunshine!!!!! - wanted to save this for the end cos its the most important to me..... i love sunshine... it brightens my day... it makes me smile... it gives me energy... it gives me the will to go on no matter what... its the bright start to a new day... a new beginning...
Sunday, September 02, 2007
Monday, July 02, 2007
psychology makes you go crazy!!!!
do u know whats the first response from a layman who heard you are studying psychology?
"oh, i better be scared, cos you can read my mind right??"
come on... how uneducated does someone have to be to think that in this day and age, someone can read your mind? through the five years that i have been studying the subject, i have heard that response or various versions of it innumerable times. but this is not what the post is about....
there is something that i have noticed! more than any other stream of students, its the psychology students who seem to be most unstable, filled with complexes and most unable to resolve personal issues in satisfactory manner.
there are two comments i have to make about this phenomenon...
whatever the reason may be, it is unsettling to know that people who are training themselves to solve your issues are the very ones who have the most issues themselves.
in my current class where i am doing my masters in psychology, from my personal assessment there are people with major inferiority complexes, superiority complexes, adjustment issues, inability to deal with others' success, hyper competitiveness, hypersensitivity, eccentric behaviour, inability to deal appropriately with emotions, low self esteem and many many more problems that as psychologists, we learn to help people with.... i include myself in the list of people who one or more of the above mentioned issues. but whatever said and done, its psychology majors who seem to have more of these issues. now, my findings are not based on empirical research but purely on observation. as a sequel to this, i also go so far as to say that as people major in more specialized fields of psychology, the more these issues manifest themselves..
like every rule, or every observation, in this case, there are exceptions to every rule... i have also met a few (very very scanty number) of people who don't show any outward symptoms of psychological issues. and i sincerely hope that as times moves on, the exceptions will be more than those who follow the norm!!!!!! for the sake of the society as least!
"oh, i better be scared, cos you can read my mind right??"
come on... how uneducated does someone have to be to think that in this day and age, someone can read your mind? through the five years that i have been studying the subject, i have heard that response or various versions of it innumerable times. but this is not what the post is about....
there is something that i have noticed! more than any other stream of students, its the psychology students who seem to be most unstable, filled with complexes and most unable to resolve personal issues in satisfactory manner.
there are two comments i have to make about this phenomenon...
- that psychology students probably come to realize that such issues exist in them more than other students do... (and therefore it is out in the open for everyone to see) OR
whatever the reason may be, it is unsettling to know that people who are training themselves to solve your issues are the very ones who have the most issues themselves.
in my current class where i am doing my masters in psychology, from my personal assessment there are people with major inferiority complexes, superiority complexes, adjustment issues, inability to deal with others' success, hyper competitiveness, hypersensitivity, eccentric behaviour, inability to deal appropriately with emotions, low self esteem and many many more problems that as psychologists, we learn to help people with.... i include myself in the list of people who one or more of the above mentioned issues. but whatever said and done, its psychology majors who seem to have more of these issues. now, my findings are not based on empirical research but purely on observation. as a sequel to this, i also go so far as to say that as people major in more specialized fields of psychology, the more these issues manifest themselves..
like every rule, or every observation, in this case, there are exceptions to every rule... i have also met a few (very very scanty number) of people who don't show any outward symptoms of psychological issues. and i sincerely hope that as times moves on, the exceptions will be more than those who follow the norm!!!!!! for the sake of the society as least!
WOW!!!!
Just a song that one of my friends sang for my boyfriend and me! i loved it! thought id share it with you guys as well!!!!! its originally sung by julie miller! here goes....
oh look at where we are
god has brought us both this far
we've been delivered by his hand
and brought to the place where we now stand
love is patient love is kind
love comes thru every time
always protects hopes and trusts
keep on believing and it never gives up
in my life i have seen so many things
but nothing has touched me so deep inside
as when i see jesus in your eyes
in my heart i'm very sure
in his love ours will endure
loving him by lvoing you
in serving jesus i will serve you too
for his glory we will live
he has given us love to give
i am with your heart and soul
where ever he leads together we will go
in my life i have seen so many things
but nothing has touched me so deep inside
as when i see jesus in your eyes
in your eyes....
oh look at where we are
god has brought us both this far
we've been delivered by his hand
and brought to the place where we now stand
love is patient love is kind
love comes thru every time
always protects hopes and trusts
keep on believing and it never gives up
in my life i have seen so many things
but nothing has touched me so deep inside
as when i see jesus in your eyes
in my heart i'm very sure
in his love ours will endure
loving him by lvoing you
in serving jesus i will serve you too
for his glory we will live
he has given us love to give
i am with your heart and soul
where ever he leads together we will go
in my life i have seen so many things
but nothing has touched me so deep inside
as when i see jesus in your eyes
in your eyes....
Friday, June 15, 2007
I... ME... MYSEF...
JUST SAW THIS ON ANOTHER BLOG AND IT LOOKED LIKE FUN.....
HAVE YOU EVER.......
Smoked a cigarette?: Brought it near my mouth and couldnt stand the smell.... so thats the whole cigarette experience for me.
Crashed a friend's car?: Nope, not yet!! but thats not to say that i wont!
Stolen a car?: nope! dont ever see myself doing that!
Been in love?: yes... completely, madly, head over heels in love.....
Been dumped?:not technically!!!! ;)
Shoplifted?:not that i remember, but it seems like something that would be fun to do just once!
Been in a fist fight?:nope, but my boyfriend has.... does that count?
Sneaked out of your parent's house?:ha ha.. if u ever saw my parents house, u would not even ask the question! its more secure than a prison!
Had feelings for someone who didn't have them back?: yeah well, haven't we all?
Gone on a blind date?: went on a blind sms date kind of thing! i still listen to my parents when they told me not to talk to strangers!
Skipped school?: nope!!!! never wanted to!
Been on a plane?: yeah! love it!!!! its an amazing feeling to fly!
Seen someone die?: nope! but had one of my best friends die in an accident! couldnt even face it at that point! im a scaredy cat when it comes to the death of loved ones!
Purposely set a part of yourself on fire?: lol... nope! even though im fat, i love my body!
Been jet-skiing?: no!!!!! but thats something id like o do with my husband at some point!
Met someone in person from the Internet?: nope.... been brought up to be wary of such things!
Taken pain killers?: nope! again, been brought up using ayurveda rather than antibiotics!
Flown a kite?: ooohhhh yeah!!!!! even saw a good friend fly a kite for the first time!!!! wow.... there is no feeling like it!
Built a sand castle?:well, helped my sisters build one loong loong time ago!!!!
Gone puddle jumping?:yes yes yes.... would still do it in a jiffy!
Cheated while playing a game?: im a pro at cheating! he he
Been lonely?:hmmm... yeah, but thankfully not anymore thanks to a certain economist who makes me feel special and wanted 24*7
Fallen asleep at work or school/college?: ha ha... ask my teachers!
Used a fake ID?: never needed one and now im an adult anyway!
Felt an earthquake?: nope! always wanted to tho!
Touched a snake?: nope, but had a friend who loved touching snakes!
Slept beneath the stars?: yeah once but wana do that with that special person!
Been robbed?:i live in india!!!!!!! does that answer ur question?
Been misunderstood?:not many times. am a freak about trying to communicate efficiently!
Won a contest?:yup! long ago.... but remember every bit clearly!
Run a red light/stop sign?: nope! am a spoitl brat who has a driver driving her around most of the time!
Been suspended from school?: nope.... glad abt it!
Been in a car accident?:not that i remember!
Eaten a whole pint of ice cream in one night?: oh yes!!!!!!!! two pints at least! and fell sick the next day!
Walked the streets drunk?: nope... have never even been drunk... just felt a slight buzz once!
Had déjà vu?: nope!!!!! always want to know how it feels!
Danced in the moonlight?:yeah but not with the person i wana do it with the most!
Witnessed a crime?: nope! had a boring life i guess!ooohhh yeah! love the feeling!!!!!!
Been lost?: my sense of direction sucks!
Been on the opposite side of the country?: yeah!!! had the most amazing time ever!
Swum in the ocean?:secret for u!!!! i cant swim!
Cried yourself to sleep?: too many times! but thankfully its been a long time now!
Played cops and robbers?: Yes!!!!!
Recently coloured with crayons?: my artistic skills are negative!
Sung karaoke?: yeah!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Paid for a meal with only coins?:oh yeah..... i lived in hostel!!! several times!
Done something you told yourself you wouldn't?: ha ha.. yeah guess so!
Made prank phone calls?: lol.. those were the days!
Caught a snow flake on your tongue?: just seen snow once!
Written a letter to Santa Claus?: yeah yeah yeah.... still believe he exists! in denial!
Blown bubbles?: its like magic! love it!
Bonfire on the beach?:ooooh yeah!!!! camptime!!! was good!
Cheated on a test?: ha ha... yeah... and still did badly on it!
Gone skinny-dipping in a pool?: nope! one more thing to add to my to do list!
HAVE YOU EVER.......
Smoked a cigarette?: Brought it near my mouth and couldnt stand the smell.... so thats the whole cigarette experience for me.
Crashed a friend's car?: Nope, not yet!! but thats not to say that i wont!
Stolen a car?: nope! dont ever see myself doing that!
Been in love?: yes... completely, madly, head over heels in love.....
Been dumped?:not technically!!!! ;)
Shoplifted?:not that i remember, but it seems like something that would be fun to do just once!
Been in a fist fight?:nope, but my boyfriend has.... does that count?
Sneaked out of your parent's house?:ha ha.. if u ever saw my parents house, u would not even ask the question! its more secure than a prison!
Had feelings for someone who didn't have them back?: yeah well, haven't we all?
Gone on a blind date?: went on a blind sms date kind of thing! i still listen to my parents when they told me not to talk to strangers!
Skipped school?: nope!!!! never wanted to!
Been on a plane?: yeah! love it!!!! its an amazing feeling to fly!
Seen someone die?: nope! but had one of my best friends die in an accident! couldnt even face it at that point! im a scaredy cat when it comes to the death of loved ones!
Purposely set a part of yourself on fire?: lol... nope! even though im fat, i love my body!
Been jet-skiing?: no!!!!! but thats something id like o do with my husband at some point!
Met someone in person from the Internet?: nope.... been brought up to be wary of such things!
Taken pain killers?: nope! again, been brought up using ayurveda rather than antibiotics!
Flown a kite?: ooohhhh yeah!!!!! even saw a good friend fly a kite for the first time!!!! wow.... there is no feeling like it!
Built a sand castle?:well, helped my sisters build one loong loong time ago!!!!
Gone puddle jumping?:yes yes yes.... would still do it in a jiffy!
Cheated while playing a game?: im a pro at cheating! he he
Been lonely?:hmmm... yeah, but thankfully not anymore thanks to a certain economist who makes me feel special and wanted 24*7
Fallen asleep at work or school/college?: ha ha... ask my teachers!
Used a fake ID?: never needed one and now im an adult anyway!
Felt an earthquake?: nope! always wanted to tho!
Touched a snake?: nope, but had a friend who loved touching snakes!
Slept beneath the stars?: yeah once but wana do that with that special person!
Been robbed?:i live in india!!!!!!! does that answer ur question?
Been misunderstood?:not many times. am a freak about trying to communicate efficiently!
Won a contest?:yup! long ago.... but remember every bit clearly!
Run a red light/stop sign?: nope! am a spoitl brat who has a driver driving her around most of the time!
Been suspended from school?: nope.... glad abt it!
Been in a car accident?:not that i remember!
Eaten a whole pint of ice cream in one night?: oh yes!!!!!!!! two pints at least! and fell sick the next day!
Walked the streets drunk?: nope... have never even been drunk... just felt a slight buzz once!
Had déjà vu?: nope!!!!! always want to know how it feels!
Danced in the moonlight?:yeah but not with the person i wana do it with the most!
Witnessed a crime?: nope! had a boring life i guess!ooohhh yeah! love the feeling!!!!!!
Been lost?: my sense of direction sucks!
Been on the opposite side of the country?: yeah!!! had the most amazing time ever!
Swum in the ocean?:secret for u!!!! i cant swim!
Cried yourself to sleep?: too many times! but thankfully its been a long time now!
Played cops and robbers?: Yes!!!!!
Recently coloured with crayons?: my artistic skills are negative!
Sung karaoke?: yeah!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Paid for a meal with only coins?:oh yeah..... i lived in hostel!!! several times!
Done something you told yourself you wouldn't?: ha ha.. yeah guess so!
Made prank phone calls?: lol.. those were the days!
Caught a snow flake on your tongue?: just seen snow once!
Written a letter to Santa Claus?: yeah yeah yeah.... still believe he exists! in denial!
Blown bubbles?: its like magic! love it!
Bonfire on the beach?:ooooh yeah!!!! camptime!!! was good!
Cheated on a test?: ha ha... yeah... and still did badly on it!
Gone skinny-dipping in a pool?: nope! one more thing to add to my to do list!
Wednesday, June 06, 2007
prayers needed!!!!!!!!
tomorrow at 9 am IST, i am scheduled to write my GRE exam. I cant say tht i have busted my ass for ages but i can say that for the past three weeks, the little time that i did study, i studied!!!! i put in everything i had!!!! tomorrow decides alot of things! im just writing this so that, if by some chance anyone comes across this blog post tonite, im asking u to pray for me.
what decides how well u do an exam? effort? i don't think so... luck???? knowledge????
this past couple of weeks has been the most tensed weeks of my life and i sincerely hope it was all worth it! well, guess ill know tomorrow!!!
just a reminder....
anyone who reads this tonight.... please take a moment and say a silent prayer!!
it won hurt you and it will only help me!
what decides how well u do an exam? effort? i don't think so... luck???? knowledge????
this past couple of weeks has been the most tensed weeks of my life and i sincerely hope it was all worth it! well, guess ill know tomorrow!!!
just a reminder....
anyone who reads this tonight.... please take a moment and say a silent prayer!!
it won hurt you and it will only help me!
Sunday, June 03, 2007
TAGGED!
got tagged by a couple of people earlier this month, finally got a few minutes to myself so decided to play!
Rules are:
* Each player starts with ten random facts/habits about themselves.
* People who are tagged need to write posts in their own blog about their ten things and post these rules.
* At the end of your post, you need to choose eight people to get tagged and list their names.
10 FACTS ABOUT MYSELF!!!!!
athu
bhavna
sindhu
you guys are tagged!
Rules are:
* Each player starts with ten random facts/habits about themselves.
* People who are tagged need to write posts in their own blog about their ten things and post these rules.
* At the end of your post, you need to choose eight people to get tagged and list their names.
10 FACTS ABOUT MYSELF!!!!!
- I open cream biscuits and eat all the biscuits first and then eat all the cream!
- I have cut open the milkmaid squeezy tube to lick the remaining condensed milk out of the tube.
- I have actually stopped my boyfriend mid-sentence while we were discussing future plans to tell him that i feel like having jilebi.
- My favourite snack is fried fish and jam.
- On a dare i ate 15 ice creams at one shot when i was 3 years old.
- I love to watch the stars and i love the beach!
- I have tried going on diets 42 times and given up after the first day.
- I still need an Enid Blyton's story book to read when i go to the bathroom.
- I convinced my sister that my mother does not love us and that we should run away when i was 4 years old.
- I want to start an orphanage and adopt a child if my husband and i can gather enough money to support that child.
athu
bhavna
sindhu
you guys are tagged!
Being a single child again!
since i was 1 and a half years old, i have never stayed at home with my parents as a single child. i have always had two bratty younger sisters wanting to copy everything i did. when i went to school, my second sister decided that she wanted to go as well, when i got a new dress, another sister wanted one just like that, when i got to go out with my friends, they wanted to go out with theirs! my mother often told me that it was flattering that they wanted to do all i did, but somehow i was smart enough never to have bought that story! wherever i looked, i always saw something that reminded me that they were there! we spent all our time playing together and keeping each other company, but let there be no illusion that the games were "fight-free". over the years, my mother learnt to turn a deaf ear to the screaming at shouting at one another. she knew that she had to be worried only if she did not hear from us for more than a few minutes cos then u could be sure that we were upto some mischief.
every time my "only child friends" told me about that huge cadbury bar they ate themselves, or the tv show they watched (which i couldnt cos my sister got to the tv first) i listened with envy and often wondered what it would be like to live alone at home.
i never really had that opportunity till a couple of days back when my sisters had to go to chennai for a few days and left me with my parents to fulfill me life long desire to be the only child.... over night things changed. i could choose what amma should make for tea, (usually, all three of us want different things and amma makes us compromise), i dint have to shout - "i book the tv at 9 pm", i dint have to book to have bath in the best bathroom, i dint have to wait till my sister took annoyingly long on the computer, i dint have to fight to lick the cake batter off the dish, i dint have to divide the portion of prawns into three and carefully assess which was the biggest portion, i dint have to fight to sit at the window seat in the car, i dint have to push my youngest sister to the edge of the bed and eventually push her out, i dint have to drink apple juice just because it was another sister's turn to choose the flavour of tropicana that we bought, i dint have to wait endlessly for the phone till my sister's million boyfriends were done talking to her.......... ah.... this is life....
or so i thought.....
to my utter dismay, being the only child was not seventh heaven... i was bored after the first one hour of being awake, i found it was boring to play the guitar and sing without the bratty duo to sing parts for the song, i found no satisfaction in sitting at the window seat in the car without winning the fight and similarly found that parents showering all their attention on you is not a good thing! there was nothing on tv that i could watch without passing the usual comments on everything and everyone and "bold and the beautiful" was no longer fun unless i watched it with either one of my witty siblings! over a period of 24 hours i went from envying only children to complete sympathy towards them for losing out on the best parts of life! having siblings, fighting with them and learning to put up with them!
guess they are what u call "necessary evils"!!!!
every time my "only child friends" told me about that huge cadbury bar they ate themselves, or the tv show they watched (which i couldnt cos my sister got to the tv first) i listened with envy and often wondered what it would be like to live alone at home.
i never really had that opportunity till a couple of days back when my sisters had to go to chennai for a few days and left me with my parents to fulfill me life long desire to be the only child.... over night things changed. i could choose what amma should make for tea, (usually, all three of us want different things and amma makes us compromise), i dint have to shout - "i book the tv at 9 pm", i dint have to book to have bath in the best bathroom, i dint have to wait till my sister took annoyingly long on the computer, i dint have to fight to lick the cake batter off the dish, i dint have to divide the portion of prawns into three and carefully assess which was the biggest portion, i dint have to fight to sit at the window seat in the car, i dint have to push my youngest sister to the edge of the bed and eventually push her out, i dint have to drink apple juice just because it was another sister's turn to choose the flavour of tropicana that we bought, i dint have to wait endlessly for the phone till my sister's million boyfriends were done talking to her.......... ah.... this is life....
or so i thought.....
to my utter dismay, being the only child was not seventh heaven... i was bored after the first one hour of being awake, i found it was boring to play the guitar and sing without the bratty duo to sing parts for the song, i found no satisfaction in sitting at the window seat in the car without winning the fight and similarly found that parents showering all their attention on you is not a good thing! there was nothing on tv that i could watch without passing the usual comments on everything and everyone and "bold and the beautiful" was no longer fun unless i watched it with either one of my witty siblings! over a period of 24 hours i went from envying only children to complete sympathy towards them for losing out on the best parts of life! having siblings, fighting with them and learning to put up with them!
guess they are what u call "necessary evils"!!!!
Wednesday, May 30, 2007
what's the big deal in Ph. D anyway??????
so, here i am, minding my own business, ambling through life with no high flown ambitions when.... BAMM... i fall in love... now that may sound like a great thing for those of you jobless people who are actually reading this.... well, yeah.... the passion, the excitement, the security, the stolen moments, the talks, the fights..... yup! sounds like an amazing deal.....
but what happens when its time to get married, you come from different continents, both of you just fresh out of college, with no work experience, parents want you guys to get married soon, you want to get married soon.... but u have absolutely no means to make a living and settle down (unless your rich uncle leaves you with an inheritance)... what do u do then???
ill tell you... apply for a Ph D!!!!! no, i have not gone bonkers as yet! the good thing about this previously unexplored decision is that most often if you get a good enough score, the uni gives you a stipend and if both of you get in, u can live off that for the next three years. this actually gives you three years of being together until u have to come up with a new plan for survival!! smart, ain't i?
this may sound simple enough! but well, nothing in life comes easy! so now you have to write the GRE!!!! U suddenly find that ur stuck with 6000 word vocab to mug up, old dusty math textbooks that have been sitting in the attic since tenth grade and hundreds of university brochures that seem to show a number of statistics that u have no idea about. but well, love does strange things to people.... so people like me, who never take an effort to study, actually cleans up a table and sets all those notes and 5 sharpened 2B pencils to start this herculian task.... bad enough that i have to do math again, but now i have to do 30 sums in 30 minutes.... How does anyone do that? it practically takes me a minute to figure out what the problem is trying to say!
"practice makes perfect", my parents say! so i practice.... (please keep in mind, that im doing this all for love)... speed, distance, time, loss, profit, sales tax, geometry, pie graphs, bar graphs, mode, median, percentage....... i must be the only person in this world to consistently do worse on subsequent tests... but i go on, trudging my way through laws of exponents ..
one evening, a certain aunt comes home and sees me with my hair out of place, pencils strewn on the table and a totally confused expression on my face. she stops to look at me and then asks me.... "why are you doing all this? can't you just get married and work here? what's the big deal about a Ph. D?" i rushed into this long explanation about how people with Ph D's get better jobs, have better opportunities, are better equipped in research, get to specialize in the field of their choice and whole bunch of stuff i don't even remember now!
later that nite, i lie down and think abt what i said.... i dont want a high flown job, i have absolutely no interest in research.. (an by that i mean zilch interest!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!), i don't even know what i want to specialize in.... what is the big deal about the Ph. D???????
well, back to my initial point..... all for love.... when in doubt, have no options ahead of you, have to get married and make a life for yourself, then go forth my friends..... Apply for Ph. D!!!!
P.S. - by the way, my GRE exam is on 7th June.... anyone who is jobless enough to read this post, please take a moment of and pray that we do well.... your prayers will give us a better chance at a peaceful next three years!
but what happens when its time to get married, you come from different continents, both of you just fresh out of college, with no work experience, parents want you guys to get married soon, you want to get married soon.... but u have absolutely no means to make a living and settle down (unless your rich uncle leaves you with an inheritance)... what do u do then???
ill tell you... apply for a Ph D!!!!! no, i have not gone bonkers as yet! the good thing about this previously unexplored decision is that most often if you get a good enough score, the uni gives you a stipend and if both of you get in, u can live off that for the next three years. this actually gives you three years of being together until u have to come up with a new plan for survival!! smart, ain't i?
this may sound simple enough! but well, nothing in life comes easy! so now you have to write the GRE!!!! U suddenly find that ur stuck with 6000 word vocab to mug up, old dusty math textbooks that have been sitting in the attic since tenth grade and hundreds of university brochures that seem to show a number of statistics that u have no idea about. but well, love does strange things to people.... so people like me, who never take an effort to study, actually cleans up a table and sets all those notes and 5 sharpened 2B pencils to start this herculian task.... bad enough that i have to do math again, but now i have to do 30 sums in 30 minutes.... How does anyone do that? it practically takes me a minute to figure out what the problem is trying to say!
"practice makes perfect", my parents say! so i practice.... (please keep in mind, that im doing this all for love)... speed, distance, time, loss, profit, sales tax, geometry, pie graphs, bar graphs, mode, median, percentage....... i must be the only person in this world to consistently do worse on subsequent tests... but i go on, trudging my way through laws of exponents ..
one evening, a certain aunt comes home and sees me with my hair out of place, pencils strewn on the table and a totally confused expression on my face. she stops to look at me and then asks me.... "why are you doing all this? can't you just get married and work here? what's the big deal about a Ph. D?" i rushed into this long explanation about how people with Ph D's get better jobs, have better opportunities, are better equipped in research, get to specialize in the field of their choice and whole bunch of stuff i don't even remember now!
later that nite, i lie down and think abt what i said.... i dont want a high flown job, i have absolutely no interest in research.. (an by that i mean zilch interest!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!), i don't even know what i want to specialize in.... what is the big deal about the Ph. D???????
well, back to my initial point..... all for love.... when in doubt, have no options ahead of you, have to get married and make a life for yourself, then go forth my friends..... Apply for Ph. D!!!!
P.S. - by the way, my GRE exam is on 7th June.... anyone who is jobless enough to read this post, please take a moment of and pray that we do well.... your prayers will give us a better chance at a peaceful next three years!
Saturday, April 28, 2007
Hardest things in life!!!!!
some things so far in my life were really hard for me to do!
like.....
1. saying sorry to my parents!
2. saying bye to friends who had been there, right next to me for years.
3. leaving your family and going away to hostel for the first time...
4. the day my elder sister got married and moved away from home...
5. the death of my best friend..
6. trying not to cry while watching STEPMOM.
7. telling my parents that there is someone i want to spend the rest of my life with!
8. realizing that i could flunk!!!!!!!!! physics model exams in tenth grade
9. admitting i made a mistake in taking a course in clinical psychology instead of industrial psych!
but the hardest thing that i had to do so far was last week.......
10. the one person who means the most to me in this world left for another continent and the worst part was that i had no idea when i would see him next. i was really glad that my parents agreed that i could go to africa and see him sometime this year....
the hardest thing i have ever had to do was say bye to him and not cry! cos i knew that if he left and the last thing he heard from me was me crying, he would be upset!!!!
without any doubt saying bye to him as he was on the flight was the hardest thing i ever had to do! i knew right then that there would be noone else for me but that one guy who was taking my heart with him on that plane!
this is to you sunshine... for bringing light into my life!!!!
like.....
1. saying sorry to my parents!
2. saying bye to friends who had been there, right next to me for years.
3. leaving your family and going away to hostel for the first time...
4. the day my elder sister got married and moved away from home...
5. the death of my best friend..
6. trying not to cry while watching STEPMOM.
7. telling my parents that there is someone i want to spend the rest of my life with!
8. realizing that i could flunk!!!!!!!!! physics model exams in tenth grade
9. admitting i made a mistake in taking a course in clinical psychology instead of industrial psych!
but the hardest thing that i had to do so far was last week.......
10. the one person who means the most to me in this world left for another continent and the worst part was that i had no idea when i would see him next. i was really glad that my parents agreed that i could go to africa and see him sometime this year....
the hardest thing i have ever had to do was say bye to him and not cry! cos i knew that if he left and the last thing he heard from me was me crying, he would be upset!!!!
without any doubt saying bye to him as he was on the flight was the hardest thing i ever had to do! i knew right then that there would be noone else for me but that one guy who was taking my heart with him on that plane!
this is to you sunshine... for bringing light into my life!!!!
Saturday, March 10, 2007
LIFE ON MY OWN!
For the past 8 months, i have been living in my own appartment. its been a marvellous experience.
after a hectic day at college, it amazing to come home and relax in the kitchen.. biopsych classes give me ample time to decide what i want to cook that night for dinner. on the way back, i pick up the necessary ingredients for the scrumptious meal i plan and i get back home. after a quick wash and a ten minute laze, i run to my haven... the delicious aroma of a variety of indian spices soon fills the small house. what makes cooking even better is the company of my two friends who bring "modas" and settle themselves in the kitchen where we all try our hands at making new dishes, jabber nonstop and laugh away to glory at our blunders in the kitchen.. like schezwan rice that was too spicy to eat.... we made pizzas, pasta, schezwan rice, chapatti, puliogare, potato or ladies finger dishes, variety of chicken dishes, bombay toast when we were lazy, cutlets.... and for dessert, gulab jamun, payasam or just some chocolate.... good food makes almost anyone happy and it obviously made us extremely happy. like all "cheri" students living on a budget, we waited for someone's birthday or someone's parents to come so we would get treated to some good food...
in the evenings, we took a walk to have paani puri, finished work on presentations and stuff and then watched some movie - however bad it was and eventually fell asleep... to wake up to yet another of classes, food, friends....
cleaning the house, paying bills on time, buying household goods were all new to me, and in the first month when i enjoyed it i thought it was probably because it still felt like i was playing house. but now 8 months down the line, i still enjoy every moment of it.
8 months ago, i wasnt sure i could manage a house on m own, but now i know i can.. my doors are always open to friends and most often i have friends dropping in or staying over... it makes life here fun..
the ultimate compliment though, was when my parents had come over for a few days and saw the way i run the house and they said they were impressed....
im glad to say that i can now officially live on my own!!!!!!!
after a hectic day at college, it amazing to come home and relax in the kitchen.. biopsych classes give me ample time to decide what i want to cook that night for dinner. on the way back, i pick up the necessary ingredients for the scrumptious meal i plan and i get back home. after a quick wash and a ten minute laze, i run to my haven... the delicious aroma of a variety of indian spices soon fills the small house. what makes cooking even better is the company of my two friends who bring "modas" and settle themselves in the kitchen where we all try our hands at making new dishes, jabber nonstop and laugh away to glory at our blunders in the kitchen.. like schezwan rice that was too spicy to eat.... we made pizzas, pasta, schezwan rice, chapatti, puliogare, potato or ladies finger dishes, variety of chicken dishes, bombay toast when we were lazy, cutlets.... and for dessert, gulab jamun, payasam or just some chocolate.... good food makes almost anyone happy and it obviously made us extremely happy. like all "cheri" students living on a budget, we waited for someone's birthday or someone's parents to come so we would get treated to some good food...
in the evenings, we took a walk to have paani puri, finished work on presentations and stuff and then watched some movie - however bad it was and eventually fell asleep... to wake up to yet another of classes, food, friends....
cleaning the house, paying bills on time, buying household goods were all new to me, and in the first month when i enjoyed it i thought it was probably because it still felt like i was playing house. but now 8 months down the line, i still enjoy every moment of it.
8 months ago, i wasnt sure i could manage a house on m own, but now i know i can.. my doors are always open to friends and most often i have friends dropping in or staying over... it makes life here fun..
the ultimate compliment though, was when my parents had come over for a few days and saw the way i run the house and they said they were impressed....
im glad to say that i can now officially live on my own!!!!!!!
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